I lay here with my phone and look at people on Facebook, see how happy they are with their families, see the good food that they are enjoying and I lay here eating saltines so I can sleep on not empty stomach.
I can’t help but ask God why me, am I that bad of a person. I have confessed my sins to you and before man.
Why God does my life have to be this way? So I ask you God if this is all I am worth, then take my life. Because I don’t know how much longer I will survive, my hope and motivation are leaving more and more each day.
I am tired mentally and physically. I am alone with just my thoughts and the devil is winning right now.
Why God, I am begging you to help me. I am alone and have no one else to turn to, please God help me.
Right now all I am thinking about is taking my own life so I can end this misery. Why God why please help me, I need you right now. I lay here alone and if I am dead at least I won’t know that I am alone.
Why God? Why am I not your child? I am close God to giving up.
I don’t want my old life and this one is not working. So what other choice do I have, because right now I don’t even feel as if I exist.
Just so everyone that did care know I tried, I really did.
Please forgive me.